About mA

KASIA – MA HITI

Kasia was born in Warsaw, Poland and immigrated to Toronto, Canada at the age of 3. She spent her formative years in a state of hyper vigilance living alongside a schizophrenic, unpredictable mother and an emotionally unavailable, often abusive or absent father. As a child, she prayed to be removed from her living nightmare to experience the safety and peace of a “normal” family.

Over time, Kasia struggled with beliefs of unworthiness and feelings of self-loathing. She started numbing herself with food, marijuana and alcohol. In her early 30’s, Kasia’s self abandonment caught up with her. Years of abusing her body manifested in a diagnosis of Hypothyroidism, Osteoarthritis in the hips and an excess level of H-Pylori bacteria in her gut. She reached a new low physically and emotionally. The years of built-up trauma were coming up at the seams. This period was a huge catalyst in her healing.

With the help of many teachers and healers, Kasia discovered that Self Love was the missing ingredient in her process. Through self-care practices such as therapy, clean eating, exercise, a disciplined spiritual practice and self expression through writing and the performing arts, Kasia began to show up for herself. She exposed shadows that were keeping her in a victim mindset and learned to reparent herself with Unconditional Love and compassion.

Travel taught her independence, surrender and how to be present. In 2017, Kasia was guided to Peru to work with Ayahuasca. This journey spear-headed her search for wisdom and healing through Indigenous Medicine. Ayahuasca initiated the journey of healing the strained relationship with her father, Kambo healed her thyroid and harmonized her body, whereas Bufo exposed sexual abuse and deep-seated fear. The years of trauma and suffering served a much higher purpose: Kasia began understanding radical acceptance, true forgiveness and how to love unconditionally. She also discovered a path to meet the God within.

In 2021, Kasia answered the call to visit Mexico. She immediately knew she had found home. Although she was personally working with Ancestral Medicine for years, it wasn’t until she landed in Mexico that she began her service with Bufo Alvarius. A year later, Kasia was initiated with Kambo, while dieting master plants, in Peru. And in 2023 she was offered the blessing of cooking her first batch of Ayahuasca. The medicine arrived at a time when she decided to part ways with her teacher. Kasia shares medicine through one-on-one ceremony to create a private container and personalized experience.

She is currently living in Lo De Marcos, Nayarit where she offers her services. She regularly travels to Toronto to visit family and friends and is happy to share her work and knowledge wherever she goes.

WHO IS MA?

Anandamayi Ma is known as the “Bliss-Permeated Mother.” She was an Indian saint, teacher, and mystic, revered as an incarnation of the Hindu goddess Durga. She was considered the epitome of “Divine Grace” inspiring many to lead a path of service, love and constant remembrance of the Divine. Her followers experienced her spiritual attributes including precognition, faith healing and miracles.

Her life was dedicated to Bhakti-yoga: union with God through unceasing single-focus and devoted actions out of love for Him. The goal on this path is to develop a loving personal relationship with God.

WHY MA?

I was never one to look for a guru. Connection to Universe was always direct. I resisted the word “God” for a long time, but I never doubted His presence. I surrendered to the best of my ability, with the tools I had at the time. Then one fortuitous day, Ma arrived to take me to the next level. It hasn’t been an easy process. I’ve faced many obstacles and am constantly forced to look at myself and accept both the darkness and the light. The path to freedom is difficult but the blessings are endless.

Ma came to me in 2023 while I was in Peru dieting with Bobinsana; a plant that stretched my heart open to new extremes. A close acquaintance discovered a book of Ma Anandamayee and insisted I read it, claiming, “This is you!” Ma’s teachings instantaneously resonated and filled my heart with the deepest love. A short while later, a devotee of Ma’s appeared at the Ayahuasca Centre, sharing the Mantra of the 108 Names of Ma Anandamayee. Now, Ma is with me at all times and for this I am forever grateful.

In past years, I’ve had several Ayahuasca ceremonies in which I felt Ma’s presence. The Spirit of Ayahuasca is the same as the Essence of Ma. She is the Divine Feminine. The Mother, the Grandmother: loving, yet firm, beautiful, gentle, scary and intense all at the same time, depending on what version will be most beneficial.

During my 2024 visit to Peru, I had a spiritual awakening supported by Ma. In a solo Ayahuasca Ceremony, I was listening to recorded Icaros when the music cut out. I checked battery levels, but there was no obvious issue with my phone, so I played the music again. Again it cut out- a clear message to sit in silence. I laid down and was immediately transported through a portal seeing flashes of Ma’s feet and white robes. Then a visceral understanding: these are my feet and I am Ma.

After the initial shock, I felt many emotions. Hers are big shoes to fill. I couldn’t understand how it happened or why I was chosen. I wasn’t sure how to move forward, but there was a sense of inner peace.

The following day I was still me; I guess I thought my life would look different since learning I was Ma. And yet, I couldn’t perform miracles and my troubles hadn’t drifted away. I realized Ma is inside all of us. She had simply unlocked the Divinity within me. I had to find Oneness with the Divine, in order to truly receive her guidance. A big part of my service to humanity is to learn more about Ma and share Her. She is a treasure to be embraced.

As if this blessing wasn’t enough, I soon realized Ma had been around before I even knew who She was. In late 2019, my father was dying. We were estranged for almost two years, but when I received word of his decline, I flew to Poland to be by his side.

He was unconscious for weeks until one day he came out of his coma. His lucid presence was an opportunity to apologize, forgive and speak my truth. I told him I loved him and that he was free to move on; that we (my family) would figure things out and everything would be ok.

On his last day of clarity, my father whispered something which I couldn’t make out. He repeated it, but still I didn’t understand. He seemed frustrated that I didn’t know who he was referring to. In Ma’s book, there’s a story about Ma accompanying a devotee’s father to the other side. The story immediately reminded me of my father’s passing and his mysterious last words: Ma. Ma.